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Does anyone else feel repulsed when your mind wanders to the past, having sex with your ex? I feel queasy just typing that out.

None of my other exes bother me when I remember the past but it makes me ill to think of exH that way.

Yup, I feel the same way!

Oh yes!!! The thought truly repulses me.

Omg!!! I was literally just thinking this about an hour ago. I was watching a security camera video of stbx dropping the kids off in my driveway. I never ever see him in person. All I could see was his head sticking up over the top of the car. I had this thought, "OMG. I am repulsed by that man. I can't believe I EVER had sex with him. (Gag!!)"

Yep. I absolutely feel that way. He is 100% repulsive.

That picture Ellie! lol

My ex is objectively nice looking but ugh that personality

Only this week, STBX WH asked me what Revulsion means?

I sent him a screen shot of the Dictionary meaning and Google Translation in a second language we both speak...

He got it! Finally...

It is the definition of revulsion....

I wouldn't screw her with the APs dick!

Yeah, nasty, repulsive and disgusting.

I completely understand this.

I always thought my XWW was the most beautiful woman I had ever known, no exaggeration. I used to lust for her even after 3 kids and 16 years of marriage. Maybe I was wearing my love goggles but that is how I felt about her.

I haven't spoke to her since I divorced her 7 years ago. I only see her on rare occasions like a wedding, a funeral, and if shes happens to park in my driveway to see the kids, which is rare. Other than that, I avoid her at all cost. When I do see her, I don't see the same beautiful woman that she was. I see every flaw. I see the ugliness. She disgusts me. All I see is a cheating, lying, selfish whore that senselessly destroyed her marriage, family, and her children's future. There is nothing special about her anymore.

Mostly revulsed about the pick-me dance phase. WTH!! Ughh. I think I 'm going to take a shower now just thinking about it.

Just love EllieKMAS's post!! Perfect for this!

Yes, I have to chime in with the majority here. Now xpos just looks old, gray and unhappy. Especially looking unhappy when his response to seeing me is to snarl, glare and lean threateningly toward me... but only in public when no one else who knows us is looking on. Pretends to be soooooo happy in a group of friends or relatives.

I'm still IHS and everytime I see him I feel revulsed, repelled, and repugnance.

I chose to spend some time with EXH a few weeks ago when DD graduated high school. Aside from his general antics, being abrasive and a jerk to DD's boyfriend who is the nicest kid you an imagine, I had exactly that thought - how could I have ever????

And no, I don't have that thought about any other ex. Those are good memories or at minimum they don't cause a negative response. EXH makes my skin crawl.

I had to deal with the ex for daughters grad celebration this week. I had to use mental bleach after the encounter. ((((shudder))))

It's interesting that I found my STBXWW gorgeous before her A, and as one poster said, when the love goggles came off, I saw her for who she was.

What I find really interesting is the comments from people who just meet her or see her briefly. They say that she carries a darkness with her, a bad energy. It's like she is giving off something that can sour milk as she glides by.

I believe beauty comes from having a good soul and hers is damaged and dark. Maybe she will have an epiphany, but if it happens, it will be in her senior years, when she is alone and free from the distractions she uses to self medicate. Who knows. As they say, not my monkey...

Oh, yes, ugly as a slab of rancid meat. That was the original question, right?

Great post. I am totally repulsed and disgusted by the idea. Absolutely. And I don't feel this way about any of my past ex's. None.

There is something vile about him. I saw a recent picture and he is so very ugly. His soul has seeped out to his exterior. Hard. Callous. Ugly.

Interesting thing is how many people who knew him had nothing positive to say. It was this unanimous thing...'I never trusted him, he was creepy, he had cold eyes, his eyes were like steel, couldn't figure out how someone like you was with someone like him....it went on and on. Not one person had anything good to say about him. That says alot.

Yes, the thought makes me want to vomit profusely. It would be like sticking your dick in the "glory hole" at a seedy bar (you're putting it where hundreds of other men have recently, who knows what you'll catch, and you won't feel good about yourself after).

I can't believe my beautiful daughter came out of there...

I don't see either of my exes any more.

When I think of either of them, though, I feel a bit badly for them. They're people, too. They have hopes, dreams, etc.

And they don't have the tools, the Self-awareness, the introspective ability, to figure out why they've not gotten what they wanted. They don't know, and they'll likely never know.

That seems pretty sad.

Devotedman, you're a better human than I.