Old affair, just found out

My marriage of 30 years is in jeopardy after my wife finally admitted to a long affair that happened about ten years ago. I’m trying to work past it with her but she is very reluctant. She has given me the trickle of information which of course is probably not finished. (We’re up to her performing oral sex "4 or 5 times" on a guy that she had a two year relationship with.)
The other guy was a hockey trainer that my son was working with. She says she grew closer to him during that time. Then she started going to his house to work out at his garage every week (without my knowledge and with his wife and kids home as well). The affair started around that time. She claims it was just making out and what I mentioned above. She claims she never even met up with him anywhere but there.
This was a place that my son would also go to work out. She would bring my daughter to pick my son up and stand around chatting with this guy and my kids.
At one point, I think a few months after it getting physical, I got so suspicious that I looked at her phone records and saw the ridiculous amount of communication between her and this guy who was just supposed to be training my son.
I confronted her and she came back with the usual, just a friend, can’t a woman have a "guy friend", nothing going on. All this while I didn’t even know she was "working out" at his house. I tried to be mature about it and let it go.
Later, something made me ask her about it again and she admitted that she had been secretly going to his garage to exercise. Then when I told her I wanted to see her phone, she dumped all of her texts with him. I told her she had to end it but I want her to text him to end it and I will read them. She claims to have done this but then deleted those texts as well.
We got a new trainer for my son and she claims to have never seen him again. I used to check her phone usage and expenses and I think it stopped.
Recently (10 years later) it came up again because it had always caused friction. After arguing about it, she attempted suicide. We spent three weeks in the hospital during which I told her we could work through anything and get past it. Well she’s out of the hospital and she started trickling out information about a week ago. She’ll never bring it up but it is all I can think about. She won’t talk unless forced to and then I have to wade through the lies, convenient forgetfulness and minimization.
I’ve told her that I want to work through it but she has to participate. She’s going to therapy on her own because she obviously has additional issues so we’re delaying couples therapy for now. Still, I’m trying to wrap my head around the extent of this betrayal and with her still holding back, I can’t. She says she wants to work it out but doesn’t follow up on it.
Any advice would be appreciated. Thank you.

5 comments posted: Sunday, March 15th, 2026